Roll, Bounce, Succeed

Since Facebook and Twitter, I have literally abandoned this blog. My thoughts have become brief cliches, innuendos, quotes, devotionals and a whole lot of copy and paste.

Okay, okay, I'm over that... or maybe I will just multi-task.

Any-who, my son and I went to a skate night hosted by his school.  I haven't been roller skating since I was in middle school, and my son, he is new to wheels completely.  Needless to say, me and my lil dude were excited to hit the rink.  Now, even after getting to our destination I STILL hadn't concocted a plan on what to do once the skates were on. I was rusty and the kid was clumsy, not the perfect combination.


Fast forward, now two stooges on skates, he's flaying around like a loose noodle while I'm maneuvering my balance to hold the both of us up. It was a sight to see, indeed, yet it will not appear on Youtube. It took us about 15 minutes to make a complete circle on the rink.  I tried to coach my tiny first timer, he was hot, frustrated and fighting back the tears. I parked him on the side lines because all I could think about was rolling solo to be strong enough to hold him up.


It hurt my heart to see my baby boy so frazzled and angry, he fell with every inch forward, and with every inch, he got right back up to keep going.   I was concentrating so hard on a plan to make sure we both enjoyed the experience , that I didnt even realize my own progress.  After titter tottering to obtain my balance in the beginning, I was now gliding with a bit more ease.


With that, I went over a pulled my youngest to his feet. "Come on, you cant learn if you dont try".


My attempt at trying to teach something I hadn't practiced was an epic fail. I thought we were the only two that rode over in the car, just him and I, I later learned we unknowingly brought fear with us.


The first timer was afraid of falling, both his actions and reactions proved that.  Me, I became anxious, helpless, and unbalanced all instruments created when "fear" tags along.


When I let go and left him to stumble, fall, and try again by himself...the evidence of success showed up in fears place. We both did better solo. But, then again growth only takes place
individually.


I fell more than I want to admit.  My son taught me that embarrassed and emotional  always get back up and keep pushing.


Skate Night with my son was more than showing up to support his school it was learning how you can quickly remove fear from the building by the actions you take.  My lil dude worked confidence and determination and I learned to let go.


From now on we Roll, Bounce, Succeed. Keep in mind that the commas mean you might fall before you get  to the next level. It's all a part of the process though.

Try these simple steps....

Believe in your heart

Create with your thoughts

Use the power of your words

Work your plan

Watch the manifestation of miracles

Procrastination is a disease...

Procrastination is the biggest addiction I battle to fight. I started this blog to hold myself accountable to the new things I have decided to walk into.  A newness that I long to begin.  To have something different I must do different things.  Easier said then done.  Each day brings new ideas, new mercies , new grace, all coupled with the fear of failure, fear of the unknown.  It is easy to blame others of your destiny when you have left them to lead the way.   Now without anyone else responsible for me and my decisions can I lead?  Sacrifice and submission means starting at the beginning, maybe even committing to some things that are not exactly glamorous to get to the point of redemption.  Freedom in all capacities come with a price.  What lengths are you willing to go, what rejections are you willing to press past to have the things that you say you want? These are the questions I ask myself and then I strive to move my feet. Procrastination...a disease I battle to fight, like any other infection I take the medicine necessary to prevent the spreading of this virus. I will win this fight.  Stay tuned the best is yet to come.  In order to win you must participate, in order to finish you must start. Remember these are just notes to myself....I'm just thinking out loud.

No Pain No Gain No consistancy No change 12-28-2010

A friend gave me a nugget of wisdom the other day...."pain is weakness leaving the body".  It makes me giggle a little when I repeat that phrase to myself.  How a simple statement can be so profound.  I can apply the phrase to so many past situations.


 I'm into the second week of my workout/bootcamp and it has been everything but easy.  Have you ever noticed on those fitness videos and commercials everyone is smiling, all cheerful about running in place? Nonsense, full body workouts are anything but exciting. As a matter of fact I haven't seen a smiling face yet.


Front planks, side planks, lunges, suicides( an appropriate name for them), and squats, just to name a few.  All a part of the extreme workout so far.  everyday I push myself to show up to these torture sessions. i have to have long pep talks with myself and then visualize the end result. (Repeatedly)

Ahhh Yes.... the privilege of getting dressed without this muffin top screaming...Tahdahh!
My youngest child is 8 and I'm pretty sure I can no longer call this blubber"baby fat".  No more excuses, a mantra I am adapting to.  A challenge that will reap enormous benefits.


Finishing the race, following through to the finish, for me.  Who knows the possibilities this discipline will bring.  On one hand, I'm excited yet, on the other hand my body is soar and I'm pissed off about it.  SMH @ myself, it's true though.


I'm pressing past my screaming muscles to reach my goal. (Again another affirmation) What pain will you endure to reach a goal, kick a bad habit,or just try something new for yourself?

Family- 12-21-2010

It's been raining for days, gotta appreciate a West coast winter.  All this rain has  allowed me to put pen to paper, getting back to my passion, writing, has brought on some new revelations.  

My Pastor once said you should surround yourself with people that make you feel inferior. In essence, I believe he was saying that your association should be with those that make you question your position, challenge you to do better.  Those people whose walk line up with their talk.  

I must confess that as a child I was taught you are only as good as your environment.  Family members used to tell me that if they couldn't do "it" then neither could I.  Such toxic suggestions.  As a child I thrived to be the exact opposite of those that spoke death into my life.

I tried to do any and everything to remove myself from the dysfunction I thought surrounded me.  I wanted to choice my family , choice my influences, where were the ones that would challenge me to do better? How come they didn't live in my household?

Now, I recognize that instead of running from the dislikes of my upbringing, I should be determined to take every experience and learn from them.  Every "dysfunction" in my family can and has built and continues to build character in me.

Every trial, tragedy, and triumph is what makes me better because I say so. I choose to embrace every part of my family tree no matter how twisted the roots might appear to be.

True success starts @ home, loving your relatives unconditionally allows love to spill over in every area of your life.

The commitment

My sister and I have committed to a fitness boot camp.  An intense 60 minute full body workout.  A contract that guarantees results after following the rules of commitment.

Commitment, now there's a word that for me, would never have been associated with exercise.
Exercise had , until now, only  been an after thought.  After, I have the baby, After, I find a gym, After, I find a workout buddy, After, I get more income, Always an after thought.

This fitness experience is more than just me getting in shape, in fact that's the end result, It will not only train my muscles but magnify my ability and willingness to  commit, strengthen my level of discipline and teach the skill of determination despite the pain. ( and whoo I'm in pain)


Learn, grow, change, evolve, transform, these are my accounts.
 

Three dollars and six dimes

Everyone talks about change, as a matter of fact, it was the theme to our presidential election
Merriam Websters dictionary defines the word change....


Change: to make different in some particular : b : to make radically different : c : to give a different position, course, or direction to.....

Change has different levels.  You can change your address, your occupation, your hair, your style of clothes, change your name, yet do any of these things really change you?

At some point "change" should evolve into transformation. (Transform= to change in composition or structure b : to change the outward form or appearance of c : to change in character or condition : convert

As 2010 comes to a close I have  a conscious decision to "quote", change somethings "unquote".

If you have opened this link then you have been invited to travel with me on this journey to learn what effective  change consists of. 

In the past two years I have relocated from the Midwest to the Southeast and now currently rest on the West....talk about an adjustment.  So many changes, each account of this blog is my exploration from change to transformation.